Tag: infertility

you’d be crawling by now…

“There’s a whole other conversation going on In a parallel universe Where nothing breaks and nothing hurts There’s a waltz playing frozen in time Blades of grass on tiny bare feet I look at you and you’re looking at me” ~ from Beam Me Up (Pink) I am grieving. Parts of the river behind the dam I began to build…

Week in Pictures

This week has been an interesting one. Saying goodbye to the 4 acre property that we knew would turn into a headache rather than a blessing was hard, but ultimately the right decision, and now we wait and see what comes up. The hardest part!! So with that, we are continuing to prepare for the unknown – and one of…

Week in Pictures

“The winter solstice has always been special to me as a barren darkness that gives birth to a verdant future beyond imagination, a time of pain and withdrawal that produces something joyfully inconceivable, like a monarch butterfly masterfully extracting itself from the confines of its cocoon, bursting forth into unexpected glory.” ~ Gary Zukav It’s going to be a long…

Eco-licious

I do not have a lot of words today from yours truly, but there are lots of things i can recommend checking out… From Bullshit.ist, Adventures-in-Fertility. Wish I’d been so sharp that early on. Perfection: What Women Want: A Vivid Portrait of Female Lives Around the World. Fucking hell: Lobster found with Pepsi logo ‘tattoo’ Proof positive Kate Winslet, Miley…

Eco-licious

Some days I have no words left. I’m exhausted after picking up Ruby’s ashes this morning, so I’ll let these article’s titles say what I don’t have words for, whether they be about issues or solutions or putting out some good food for thought…or even just appreciating the little things in life. I have noticed over the years that while…

Facing it Head On (& burning it down)

Throughout the years of infertility treatments, I never once read a book about the topic. No interest whatsoever. I didn’t want to read some bullshit “it only takes one egg” or “do these yoga poses and your eggs will magically reappear in your ovaries” inspirational publications, and I didn’t want to read a book by someone who got their happy…

Week in Pictures

This week has definitely been about food, full stop. At my husband’s natural grocer employer, some of the food that they can’t sell anymore on the shelves (due to expiration dates, aesthetics, and what-not) comes up for grabs for employees to take home. (Most of the food actually goes to gleaners and the food bank, but the “blue slip” that…

Peri-WTF?! (or, having the courage to be free)

So I’m slowly but surely coming to the concept that I’m actually in perimenopause and have been for a number of years. I mean, hell, minus the hot flashes everything else seems to match pretty perfectly, from my fucked up ovaries to my mood swings to my space-out moments. Fact is, in just over two months I’ll be 44. When…

Week in Pictures

I made and we collectively devoured this lovely hot chocolate souffle. One thing I learned after my cheese one I made a couple weeks ago turned out more like melty scrambled eggs on the inside is that duck eggs just are NOT good for souffle-making. The egg whites don’t stiffen up the same like chicken eggs do and they just…

Week in Pictures

Something my husband and I always have enjoyed is wandering through community gardens. The gate was open when we were out in Southeast today for an appointment so we did a quick wander around the Sewallcrest Community Garden which is of course practically silent now that we are deep into autumn, but being a sucker for transforming garden sheds and…