Tag: deivf

This weird clusterf**k anniversary

  April 22nd is a weird fucking day for me. First of all, it’s Earth Day. Not weird. Awesome, in fact. My favorite holiday.  I’ve written about it from a technology perspective, as well as from corporate “green team” and volunteer perspectives, Today I will plant bachelor’s buttons and sunflower seeds in the garden, something we’ll not get to enjoy…

Facing it Head On (& burning it down)

Throughout the years of infertility treatments, I never once read a book about the topic. No interest whatsoever. I didn’t want to read some bullshit “it only takes one egg” or “do these yoga poses and your eggs will magically reappear in your ovaries” inspirational publications, and I didn’t want to read a book by someone who got their happy…

Eco-licious

Last week of July, whoa! Next week, right on schedule, the reason I hate August will be here. 102 degree forecast for Wednesday. Fuckity fuck fuck.  I detest the heat and with just the bedroom A/C it’s not going to be great. So because of that, this is a special Grumpy Edition of Eco-licious…with a nice happy musical treat at…

Rediscovery

I was watching television on a Saturday night, thinking “is this all there is?” and the loneliness enveloping me. It’s what’s made me eat when I shouldn’t, that numbing food addiction that made me say to myself “tonight I’m going to fuck over my body with unkind food choices.” And I get sick and I cry to myself, because it’s…

Henry

One year ago we saw that second pink line on a home pregnancy test, and our hearts leapt out of our chests, tears running down our faces as we realized that finally, after two IUIs and four rounds of donor egg IVF, we would be parents. At 6 weeks, 5 days, we saw you for the first time and your…

So Fucking Done (today’s vent)

I’m sitting here with vision only in my one eye, unable to leave my house and take a simple walk down the street, unable to watch television, unable to do anything beyond sit around stewing in my thoughts on this 100 degree day. I’m recuperating from a herniated disc injury that’s lasted seven months and dealing with people both online…