Category: Two Plus One = Family

The Grip

I’ve been in and out of favor with lady luck I gotta tell you I’ve seen things I never wanted to see I’ve got to get back on my feet I feel like I’ve been sleeping Sweet, sweet time Has been a real good friend of mine Waiting for that change of season Oh the winter’s been so long Searching…

Would you like some PTSD with that ?

So eight weeks of bleeding y’all. Eight weeks on my period was what it took to get me into a doctor. I had talked to my naturopath about it and she had recommended I start on Vitex, to help regulate it, but I knew deep down that whatever’s going on with my body is beyond herbal supplements. When I first…

you’d be crawling by now…

“There’s a whole other conversation going on In a parallel universe Where nothing breaks and nothing hurts There’s a waltz playing frozen in time Blades of grass on tiny bare feet I look at you and you’re looking at me” ~ from Beam Me Up (Pink) I am grieving. Parts of the river behind the dam I began to build…

Facing it Head On (& burning it down)

Throughout the years of infertility treatments, I never once read a book about the topic. No interest whatsoever. I didn’t want to read some bullshit “it only takes one egg” or “do these yoga poses and your eggs will magically reappear in your ovaries” inspirational publications, and I didn’t want to read a book by someone who got their happy…

Week in Pictures

This is our mural downstairs in a little nook area outside of the bedroom that would have been for our little one. Being the basement and being beach bums ourselves, the ocean concept was an easy one, so I got some inspirations from some cartoon pictures and went to town with a black sharpie, then coloring those in with some…

Emerging…

I just kept hearing the word “emergence” in my head recently. Where am I going to wake up and make my next move? What will it look like? Do I really need to abide by these self-imposed rules? Or can I just…do what I want to do? Is it okay for me to emerge into this new unfamiliarity of a…

The dreams that you dare to dream…

In an effort to start the slowly-but-surely process of auditing what we have, what we need to minimize, and what we can put away in preparation for scooting off on our next adventure to the countryside next year, I found this pink owl, sitting in the corner with the other stuffed animals that have been gathering dust since we decided…

Ball’s in my court…

Purgatory, that’s kind of how my life has felt, not knowing from one day to the next where the next hit will come from, how optimistic or pessimistic I should be, if I’ve got good things just behind the next bend or I’m about to see more kaka hitting the fan, et cetera. So I stand here, behind the curtain,…