Category: Two Plus One = Family

Healing: day 7 (wisdom)

(Click here to learn about the daily blog project) My wisdom? Knowing I’m not always going to succeed at this healing thing…or be able to talk about it every day for a month. I’ve written about this here for four years and honestly, I’m done with the laser focus on my body’s collective failures that led to the loss of…

Healing: day 6 (healing)

That’s us today, still healing. I know we’re healing as we watched Private Life on Netflix last night and I didn’t have a massive breakdown. Then again the topic was infertility without pregnancy loss. The other night I watched the This is Us episode on miscarriage from last season and while it hit on the emotions, it addressed pregnancy loss…

Healing: day five (rituals)

Our Jizo statue came with us in the move to Astoria and I see him every day. I know what happened was real. He now has my old necklace of hope on it that I used to wear during treatments, bearing the weight of it even when I cannot stop and honor the memory like I should. This may not…

The Grip

I’ve been in and out of favor with lady luck I gotta tell you I’ve seen things I never wanted to see I’ve got to get back on my feet I feel like I’ve been sleeping Sweet, sweet time Has been a real good friend of mine Waiting for that change of season Oh the winter’s been so long Searching…

Would you like some PTSD with that ?

So eight weeks of bleeding y’all. Eight weeks on my period was what it took to get me into a doctor. I had talked to my naturopath about it and she had recommended I start on Vitex, to help regulate it, but I knew deep down that whatever’s going on with my body is beyond herbal supplements. When I first…

you’d be crawling by now…

“There’s a whole other conversation going on In a parallel universe Where nothing breaks and nothing hurts There’s a waltz playing frozen in time Blades of grass on tiny bare feet I look at you and you’re looking at me” ~ from Beam Me Up (Pink) I am grieving. Parts of the river behind the dam I began to build…

Facing it Head On (& burning it down)

Throughout the years of infertility treatments, I never once read a book about the topic. No interest whatsoever. I didn’t want to read some bullshit “it only takes one egg” or “do these yoga poses and your eggs will magically reappear in your ovaries” inspirational publications, and I didn’t want to read a book by someone who got their happy…