Category: Musings

Bravery Not Included

Bravery, strength, blah blah blah. Doesn’t feel like it to me. Just another attempt to be a parent that we are on, this time with a different set of paperwork and an equal amount of money. Stay busy, stay distracted, stay alive – maybe if I don’t do that I won’t have to feel.  I’ve never been a big drinker.…

On our 3rd

“These are the hands of your best friend, young and strong and full of love for you, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as you promise to love each other today, tomorrow, and forever. These are the hands that will work alongside yours, as together you build your future. These are the hands that will passionately love you…

To My Best Friend…

You’re all that I can trust Facing the darkest days Everyone ran away But we’re gonna stay here, we’re gonna stay here This world has turned to dust All we’ve got left is love Might as well start with us Singing a new song, something to build on When it all falls, when it all falls down I’ll be your…

For My Funny Valentine…

My funny valentine Sweet comic valentine You make me smile with my heart When my love and I got hitched on that lovely day in May 2014, my gift to him was to surprise him at our wedding dinner with a song from my longtime friend Shirley Nanette, who’s been like an auntie to me since we met way back…

To My Sweetheart…

And I gotta get a move on before the sun I hear my baby calling my name and I know that she’s the only one You planted me a dogwood tree when we got married in honor of this sweet little song that we both were digging on, back in the day when we first fell in love from across…

To My One and Only…

I’ll be the weeping willow drowning in my tears And you can go swimming when you’re here And I’ll be the rainbow after the tears are gone Wrap you in my colors and keep you warm That’s how strong my love is, darling When we told my friend Claudia that we were getting married, she practically yelped “can I please…

The Most Important? The Hardest? Umm, notsomuch.

“And unlike most professions, mom enjoys a very high popularity rating. The world is your public relations team. Nary a television commercial or Oprah segment passes without someone giving props to Mom.It’s like being an astronaut or animal rescuer: You’re automatically beloved. Even if you’re bad at being a mom, the halo effect still sheds its heavenly light on thee.”…

“You Seem Fine!”

I’m not trying to put on a happy face. Things suck, and that’s how it is. Pictures and inspirational quotes don’t mean I’m not struggling just to breathe, that I am not awash in grief. I’m not in anyone’s club now. I have yet to read a story about 6 failed rounds of DEIVF. That’s not how it works, at…

Post-mortem

Scotch. Two glasses of Glenmorangie, the Scotch that I dove into during my trip to Scotland back in 2010, the year before I met my true love. Drinking two glasses of it, neat, at a nearby bar with my husband, letting it swiftly warm my belly and allowing everything to sit off to the side for the day after hell…