Entry Number Thirteen: Two Plus One

'With these alternative fertility treatments you never quite know how things turn out,'
The Five Day Countdown Begins

Well, yesterday was the big day for my hubby making his contribution, and so this coming Wednesday the doc will be transferring an embryo and seeing if it sticks!!!

With that, definitely trying to stay busy, and my work has definitely not failed me. Happily, I had 3 job offers extended and 2 have already accepted, so just crossing my fingers the 3rd will work out. Along with that I took some part time recruiting gigs, as I like to call them, where there might be some extra $ for us if the stars align as I’d like 🙂 So that with the garden, canning, and such, puts me in a hectic busy mode that, while stressful, makes the time whiz by much faster.

Wow! Fertilization Frenzy!

Our doctor called this morning to let us know that he retrieved TWENTY eggs from our donor, ALL which fertilized!!! Like he said, “can’t get much better than that!”

My hubby and I grinned, then I immediately burst into tears. Could this be happening? We shall see.

As of yesterday, my booty shots are now daily. Each morning, .2 of Progesterone to prepare and support implantation, and continuing my Delestrogen, now at .2. every three days to keep my uterine lining nice and thick. No more cute little tummy shots. Now my ass is sore.

After Wednesday’s transfer, we’ll have a week til we find out if it works…

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Prepping the Belly

As a special treat to myself, I took advantage of the services of a talented LMT at my naturopath’s office who specializes in fertility massage. This is not your normal Swedish massage, as it focuses mostly on lower back, abdomen, and cranio-sacral therapy. It was pretty amazing.

She also does prenatal massage and teaches hypnobirthing classes, so I’m definitely curious once we are pregnant about that as well. How lucky am I to have all kinds of cool stuff in walking distance.

Although I will say to my regular gal JC, if you’re reading this…you’re still the best, chica!!!! 🙂

With Deepest Gratitude to Our Donor

When I spoke to the doctor today, I also wanted to know if she received the gift we left for her, as she is an anonymous donor. While we of course were paying her donor fee, that didn’t give us any emotional connection, so we wrote our thoughts on a card, and tucked it in with some homemade goodies I’d canned this year. This Raymond Carver poem is something Dan & I hold close to us, even referencing it in our wedding, so we shared it with her as well. Our doctor said she was very touched, as even though this was her 5th time as a donor, no one had ever gone to this extent with a gift (here I was thinking it wasn’t nearly enough). And as I write this, I well up again. Because my eggs have left the building, and she’s our only shot at experiencing pregnancy. How could I not want to give her everything?

It felt like a given
Something a woman’s born to do
A natural ambition
To see a reflection of me and you

I can live for the moment
When all these clouds open up for me to see
And show me a vision
Of you and me swimming peacefully

And sometimes I don’t have the energy
To prove everybody wrong
And I try my best to be strong
But you know it’s so hard
It’s so hard

It’s so hard when it doesn’t come easy
It’s so hard when it doesn’t come fast
It’s so hard when it doesn’t come easy
It’s so hard

~ from Dixie Chicks “So Hard

 

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