i am free yet i am looking at a mountain in front of me. an entire range, it beckons. and i think
how do i get it to just Stick. where is it
in my mind
that i hold myself back.
the other day i just stared and stared through the glass door.
i rationalized. i emotionalized.
and i switched off.
i lost hope for an evening.
and i woke, feeling death all around me. haunted.
that voice inside me
This is how they See you. (what did you think? you’d get more?)
you walk around and you are everything inside
but they don’t see that
and eventually, you don’t see that.
and you try
but you remember what is still Inside. breaking and pounding and screaming to escape.
perhaps it is time to run free.
i am discovering
the uninhibited me.
and i forgive myself.
i lift my chin, open my eyes, blink once,