hush now, my girl, because you don’t know where tomorrow will lead you. you have not one clue as to what things will look like in a week or a month or a year. hush now, my girl. you are in a quiet quiet world right now and all you can do is face each day one at a time and hope for the best. the thought of the holidays break my heart into a million pieces.
it is my third year alone on the holidays. i have never known how to face them head on or even sideways for that matter. i want my heart to feel safe and comforted but instead on christmas it feels like it’s been sliced and pinned to a wall. i have no traditions – they left me years ago.
am i naive, am i lost, am i forgotten?
i don’t have an identity.
hush now, my girl, it will soon be over.
I run my fingers through my hair,
try to focus on something but all I do is stare.
Maybe its not in me,
maybe its all in you.
what’s a face without a smile supposed to do
I’m trying to be a better soul who’ll be there to catch your fall.
I want to be the words on your tongue.
~ excerpts from a favorite blog