pinot grigio to mellow me out tonight before i collapse onto the sofa and be a bum. rotten nights sleep full of nightmares and heat exhaustion and waking up with a start. over, and over, and over, i’d have different visions in my head – the weirdest one was quite terrifying as i thought i’d woke up to find a group of big scary men in my room sitting there, watching me as i lost my voice and cried as i tried to reach for my phone in vain. i got up, i walked around, i wrote a bit. by around 5am i finally gave up and let the pup out. now, i am paying the price. a handful of grapes, a glass of the same, and i’m done. finis. daydreaming, curled up in a cool sheet under the fan and ready for an early evening nap.